What does this mean?
I sit here yet again after some time has passed from my last article. And I keep wondering about this battle of the in-between.
I pour out the words in-person about duality. That it is the most human thing to experience - especially as many close to me move into their parenthood journey.
Things can feel both a blessing, and a worry.
A pure bliss feeling throughout your body, and racing thoughts that keep you up at night.
A deep rooted gratitude, and a spiral of doubts and what if’s.
And yet, or maybe I should say of course, I am here in the middle, speaking on the middle - and afraid to come write about the middle.
I also realize as of late, so many new things have unfolded in my life - like finding a form of movement that I’m obsessed with and get to share with my daughter (yup we joined a Muay Thai & Kickboxing gym, but that’s for another time).
And yet it only occurred to me today, when was the last time I listened to music, meditated, prayed, and allowed stillness or thoughts to come through?
When did I make space to hear the answers to all my silent questions?
And the reality is - I haven’t.
So here I am perfectly messy and chaotic and vulnerable to rejection, but choosing me in the stillness even if I’m not sure I’ve done enough for the day.
If you resonate with any of this, I would love to have you join this journey of the unknown in community together. And I would always love to hear your thoughts as well - because - that’s actual community.
I have been speaking on tiktok more and sharing raw thoughts and I love that form of expression but maybe, just maybe, I’m being asked to slow down and share in a longer more intentional way.
One thing I do know is my sign off for those posts are one of my favourites to say and share, and I will absolutely be bringing that into this imperfect chronicles of being online and sharing life.
As always, sending you love xx